♥ Thursday, August 23, 2007
5 things I can't stand
1. Salespeople hovering over you when you just want to have a look see
I mean I know you want business and all
But this is abit too much
And it drives me away more than attracts me
By your "good service"
2. Bus drivers who appear not to hear or see when someone presses the bell
I wanna get off the bus!
>_<
Simple as that
3. People who assume you know exactly which floor they live on
Excuse me
One hdb block contains probably what
A few hundred people?
Then when you get in a lift on the ground floor
Some person comes in then stands in the lift wordlessly
Then when you ask quietly
"Sorry, which floor do you live on?"
They give you a 'DUH' look
And say in a very fed up tone, "6"
It makes me feel like a badly treated doorman
I especially hate those with kids that go
"Mommy, I never knew there were people who existed,
that didn't know where we live?"
Wth. You very popular is it.
4. Losing hope
Just when my AMAZING PW group
Thought of a great idea to develop for one of our events
We interview a teacher
Only to have all these ideas collapsing on us
And the MOE teacher who insists
That the "groundbreaker" must feature in our work as well
Sigh, trouble trouble
Racking my brain makes me tired and dizzy
5. Guys who think they're cute, kind, helpful etc. when they're NOT
Egos... deserve to be bruised
Maybe its their biological make-up or something
But people of the opposite gender
Seem to have a manificently boosted ego
And go to all ends to show-off
Some are much worse
They have such a high level of self-confidence
Even to the extent of questioning
Why they aren't well-liked
I mean there must be a reason right?
LOL, and the reason is that ego
-takes a pin and pops it-
I'm so tired
Haven't been sleeping much these few days as usual
I kind of miss band
Even though I've barely joined the main band for like
A month and a half?
But three performances is enough to tire me out
Even though the last one was
One with a rather miserable response
I felt like I was playing to thin air
XD
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But "Saints presentation night" aka SAS concert at Singapore Concert Hall
Was pretty fun
First time I was on stage instead of in the audience
In a band concert
Although erm I kinda pangseh-ed
Cos I couldnt play much
Except Lion King and Nessun Dorma
So I stoned through most of Postcards
We took quite a few pictures there
In full concert uniform
I think I look fat =x
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Then Band Convention at Raffles Town Club was cool
The whole place was so big
Even the toilets
We had refreshments on both days
I.e. Rehearsal and actual day
Yummy! (:
And this time I actually played all the songs
Mwahaha
Montana Fanfare, Postcards from Singapore, Arsenal!
-grins-
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Then Asean Closing Ceremony at Toa Payoh Sports Hall
We only played entertainment music though
Was there around 3?
But then only played at around 4.30
Beatles Medley and Rock and Roll Explosion
We watched men's volleyball!
THAILAND VS KOREA
Thailand won though =/ I mean they were good and all that
But I don't like, haha
Korea had a cute player, I agree with RX =P
Number 11! Hahahaha
Got pretty tired sitting there though
I still have so much PW to do
On top of my previously busy schedule
So I haven't been catching up on homework
And sleep as well
Argh
Another tiny list to remind me of my leftover hw
Bio eukaryotic genome tut
Bio (tmr sure got write-up to do)
Chem alkenes tut
Chem study kinetics/alkanes for tues lect test
Chem practical write-up
Maths techniques of differentiation tut
Maths applications of differentiation tut
Maths maclaurin's series tut
Econs study until new notes for mon lect test
GP path of enlightenment(?) comprehension
GP revised renaissance powerpoint presentation
PW interview
PW WR second draft
PW a&e, gi, si, oi etc. of event
And revise all work since bleahhh
-yawn- I shall go catch some shuteye...
♥ Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Staying for long hours left alone at home
Makes me question
My existence
And ultimately
My presence in this world
And after all my tedious Q&As with my own mind
I always end up with a conclusion
That makes me fill down in the pits
-sigh-
Maybe I shouldn't have joined band in the first place
Everyone is so talented
So special
So bonded
And me
A SUCKY outcast
A clarinetist who doesn't belong
Simply because I can't even play a clarinet properly
I've spent my whole life trying to find out
What my talent, my strength is...
Mommy sent me to:
Art classes
Swimming lessons
Sailing lessons
Ice skating lessons
Electone lessons
Baking lessons
Phonics lessons
Piano lessons
Aerobics courses
In primary school I joined:
Brownies
Wushu
Chinese Dance
Prefectorial Board
Buddy Reading Club
Speech and Drama
Secondary:
Rhythmic Gymnastics
Junior College (ie. now):
SAJC Concert Band
...but I still don't think I excel in anything
I'm just a pure failure through and through
Someone who doesn't deserve a second chance
You don't know how desperately I want to do well
After being in the background all my life
I've been trying SO hard (okay maybe not hard enough but still)
To be able to play the clarinet well
To finally do something that I enjoy
And maybe discover some talent in this area at least
BUT everything so far
Points to me being a delusional idiot
I wasn't meant to join a band
Which is already so closely knit, like a family together
This blur beginner thrust upon them
Is just a thorn in their skin
A burden upon their backs
Someone who would never fit in no matter how hard she tried
A fool who doesn't DESERVE to BELONG
Me
Mandy
Stupid, ugly, untalented MORON of the century
♥ Sunday, August 12, 2007
Been so busy again lately
Even during holidays
Band dinner on Wednesday
Got to see my seniors! haha
Even though I've never talked to any but Joel and Pamela
And only know by sight, Emmeline, Brandon and Shioks
Well it was kinda an okay night
Tons of pics were taken
But I didn't bring my camera so it's all in the others'
And I didn't take many actuallyCos I felt so extra haha
So unless people wanted to take with me
I just wandered around with Sarah and hid in the toilet lol
Well that night ended at 12
Cabbed back with that stupid midnight surcharge
And daddy refused to let me stay over at RX's *pouts*
I almost fell asleep in the shower! HAHA
Cos it was like 2am XD
Hm next day took Bambi to meet
Joanna, Rui Xian and Jasmine for lunch
Xing Tong wasn't allowed to stay over either =/
Lunch at New York Pizza
Surprisingly my little dear didn't make much noise
Was amazingly calm instead of his usual hyperactive self
Didn't pounce on food on the table either
Friday more band prac
Then Saturday rehearsals since 1230
Although we didn't actually start till about two la
And barely spent 15 mins on stage
But spent about an hour practising and tuning
Ate the sandwich there
It was pretty nice, haha (:
Bleah
Was so nervous when I was playing
And I didn't play quite alot of parts in pieces
Cos I wasn't confident of not squeaking
And also was afraid of not being in rhythm and playing wrong notes
I still have to play postcards for band convention!
AHHH I'd better practice more
Or not pangseh Joanna again
Haha XDArrived home close to 1230!
Parents were a little annoyed
I wish I could improve faster
It's not like I never practice
Maybe I just need to practice much more?
Sigh
I hate sounding like shit
Regrets:
1) I didn't take pics with Superman and Marilyn Monroe!
2) I forgot to eat dessert during the dinner! AHHHHH
3) I forgot to ritard at so many parts during Nessun Dorma ): So I ruined it, ahhhh
4) Maybe I'm just not cut out for band...
I'm so SUCKY...
PICS!
of BAND DINNER
The clarinetists! GIRLS ONLY
Aaron and I! (I look sleepy) o_o Must've blinked
Me and Brandon! He's soooo ultra tall -_-
Joanna and I!
♥ Sunday, August 5, 2007
Excerpt of a conversation with my brother
Which would prove to the world
Exactly how BLOODY irritating he is
Me: *saw a new bottle of 1.5l lemon tea on dining table*
*pours myself a cup*
Him: Bitch! But the bottle back into the fridge!
Me: *blur* Huh? Back in the fridge? I didn't take it out!
Him: OH MY GOD! *rushes to fridge*
There was another cold bottle of lemon tea inside which was already opened
And I didn't know obviously
Him: *rushes out brandishing bottle* WHAT THE FUCK!
Why did you open the new bottle!!!
Me: It's just a bottle, you don't have to get so worked up!
Him: Mommy's gonna come home and fry your ass!
*points middle finger*
RETARD!
Me: *absolutely flabberghasted* O_O
You know, sometimes I wonder why I even bother to talk to him
He never answers in anything but crude vulgarities
And over the most minor incidents
I seriously wish he wasn't alive
If only my parents didn't wanna try again for a BOY
I mean, what good is a boy in this world? -.-
They are crude idiots
Don't have as logical and sensible a mind as girls
And get into brawls easily because of a horrifically inflated EGO
ARGH
Just, um, THREE MORE YEARS
When he goes to NS I'll finally have peace
*whines about homework*
EOM draft 2
WR draft 1
GP comprehension
GP proj presentation and speech
Econs Essay 1
Econs Case Study 1
Maths differentiation tutorial
Maths trigonometry tutorial
Organic chem tutorial
Chem prac write-up
ALL DUE ON MON/TUES
I hate life...
