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♥ Sunday, July 29, 2007
Woah, its good to be HOME!
OCIP camp 2007 was pure hell
I ran past the band when they were practicing on Saturday
So many thousand times
Cos the seniors made us run there and back to get stuff
And I soooo longed to be there and not doing this
But I'm glad I made it through all the activities
And games too
Physically and mentally strenous
That's already an understatement!
I just broke down when I got home
Tired and pissed mostly
Because I have an enormous sense of pride
I don't like to be treated like some enslaved pile of dirt
2 minutes late
When they gave us an unreasonable time to gather at
And we have to do 20 pushups?
Absolute madness
Waking up at 4am to do a water parade to Bishan Park and back?
What were they thinking!!!
We only arrived back in school at 8am by the way
EIGHT IN THE MORNING
I feel dead...
Then our OCIP 2007 Endurance Run
We beat our seniors with a timing of 1hr 14min and 10secs
Continuous jogging around the track without breaking into a walk
I feel satisfied
But tortured
I've never done more than 8 rounds before
What more 20+ rounds!
And there's still that egg hunt
Dumping us in the field at 10.30pm in the night
And making us hunt for eggs with our names written on
Plain madness!
Cruelty to JC1's!!!!!!!!!
It rained too, so we were sloshing around in the mud half the time
And they kept screaming (the seniors btw)
"WHY DO I SEE PEOPLE WALKING! WHAT IF YOU BREAK AN EGG!"
*sulk* So what if I DO!
And besides there were streetlamps!
I can see precisely where I was stepping!
ARGH

But well I learnt alot from this experience
Like no matter
How much I wanted to scream and give up
I learned how to endure and press on
How much I wanted to just leave my friends behind
And get somewhere the earliest
I had to be a good team member
And help everyone along
How much I felt a fire drill at 2am was unreasonable

I had to grit my teeth and go at top speed
And when my group left things behind
We had to be responsible for them and own up
Oh and it gave me a new perspective on hygiene
No time to wash cutlery?
Then dont! XD
It doesn't matter when it touches hot water anyway
Just dip them in milo! lol

Here's thanks to the seniors for toughening me up
And no thanks to bruising my pride AND causing me to get bruised physically
I have two blue-blacks!
And four scratches!
Teehee
And now I have conflicting emotions about
Whether to stay on or drop out
Time will tell!
Now I have to rest these sore and pained muscles
(I can't even sit within a minute
have to use arms to slowly lower my body
cos legs will just give in and I'll slam my butt down)
I wonder how I'm gonna do pe tmr! =P

Keep going Mandy!
Keep going OCIP GROUP 3 peeps!
Keep going Twelfies!
Keep going 07s13!
Keep going everyone!

♥words from deep within





♥ Monday, July 16, 2007
Bloody hell
Why is everyone destroying my life nowadays?
I don't even have a plain right to choose anymore
What happened to fighting for human rights huh
WTF
Just get OUTTA it and leave me alone
I seriously don't care anymore

And I missed the times in secondary school
When I had so much free time
I could come home and take my little hyperactive darling
For long walks around the estate
And not do any homework
Cos secondary school stuff is so common sense
That you don't have to study to pass
Sigh
Compared to now

Anyway my darling's THIRD birthday is coming soon
So I shall dedicate a post to him for his birthday
So here are some pics of
Bambi dearest! And his infectious lolling grin

Yawning after a bath (:
So cute, ain't he, on my piano bench
Which has been used as his grooming bench
Since I gave up on piano three years ago
(hmm? was that why i dropped piano lessons? lol)









Bambi's first nap in the house
He has a different playpen now
We used to put him in this one because it was light a portable
And he was so mini!
Like barely the size of a tile
Lots of newspapers because he's not toilet-trained
I remember this day
November 12 I think, if I'm right





My little deer at the door of the master bedroom
Daddy had the air-con on
So he was trying to enjoy at the little slit below the door
Where cool air seeped out
And gave him some respite from his thick snowy white coat
So adorable (:



This is a pic of Bambi with a clip in his hair!
Mommy felt the fur was going into his eyes
So she made me slip the fringe back
He didn't like it much =P Typical boy
Kept trying to take it out
But in the end didn't he look pretty?
Teehee ^_^



I can't wait for August 20!
I shall make the day so ultra special for him
More special than his chocolate biscuits day
Plus a long scenic bike-ride with him in the basket day too
He loved those I bet (:
I shall walk him to a nice beach or something
Then take him to a puppy cafe for good food
But haha, to bad he's vegetarian! XD
Poor dear

♥words from deep within





♥ Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Afraid
Burdened
Confused
Demoralized

Headache
Exhausted
Languished
Pained

A mask a can't conceal
I don't know what to do
Have I been doing enough to help myself?
OR is it simply the guilt catching up
I need to finish my homework
Projects
Practice the clarinet tons
Revise for Promos
Am I doing enough?
I'm such a failure still
Haven't made anything out of my life
Except brought misery to hundreds
Forgive me
For my existence...
I should never have been born in the first place

Weary.

Insane.

Leaving.
Totally.

Instantly.

Now.
Gone.


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♥ Monday, July 9, 2007
And now, a "fighting for rights" post (:
Whole post today will be news
Of which their topics I feel passionately against or about

Asia-Pacific News

Taiwan restaurant blasted for serving "dead-and-alive fish"

Jul 8, 2007, 1:55 GMT

Taipei - A Taiwan restaurant has been condemned by the public for serving fish whose body has been fried but its head still moves when the fish is served to diners, a newspaper reported Sunday.

The restaurant in Chiayi, central Taiwan, said it sent cooks to China's Sichuan province to learn how to prepare Yin Yang Yu, or dead-and-alive fish, and began to serve the dish in June, the United Daily News said.

But far from booming business, the creation has brought the restaurant only trouble, with animal-rights groups and members of the public condemning the restaurant for its cruelty to fish.

'This is shocking and disgusting. How can someone be so cruel? It's alright if you want to eat a fish, but do you need to put the fish to so much torture?' the paper quoted a source identified as Miss Chen as saying.

Miss Chen urged the Chiayi City Government to ban the restaurant from serving 'dead-and-alive fish,' because though carp is not an endangered species, 'The restaurant is still being cruel to animals and shows no respect to life.'

Another Chiayi resident, also named Chen, said that Taiwan should not follow the example of China, where 'dead-and-alive fish' is allowed to be served.

'I heard that Britain will ban cruelty to fish,' the second Chen said. 'We should learn from Britain.'

Even Chiayi city authorities disapprove of serving the 'dead-and- alive fish.' One official, Huang Wen-hsien, called it inhuman to serve a fish while it is still alive.

'The fish's eyes stare at you when you're eating its meat. Do you have the heart to swallow its meat?' he asked.

The restaurant manager, named Wang, defended the dish by saying that another dish known as 'shrimp cooked alive' is even more cruel because restaurant boil shrimp in glass bowls to allow customers to watch the crustaceans being boiled alive.

My comments:
Don't you think this is simply inhuman, or to put it better
In-fish? How can anyone bear to cook anything alive?!
Especially when carp
As proven by professionals
Is a vertebrate, which means it has a smaller capacity for pain
Than invertebrates
And what hasn't been mentioned above
Is that these poor fish stay alive on the dining table for 30 mins
While it watches in absolute INTENSE pain
At the diners gouging its flesh out?
What's worse than knowing you're being eaten
Feeling that you're being eaten
And not being able to do anything to numb the pain
Or even die faster? To relieve everything?
CRUEL!!!!!!


Live Earth concert leaves litter, little enthusiasm

Mike Collett-White, Reuters

Published: Monday, July 09, 2007

LONDON - They rocked the world, but as the cleanup at nine climate change gigs around the globe begins, many wonder if the galaxy of pop stars did much to change it.

U.S. and British media were generally underwhelmed yesterday by Live Earth, the mega-concert organized by former U.S. vice-president and green campaigner Al Gore.

In Germany, however, newspapers were more upbeat about the gigs, designed to pressure leaders to sign a treaty by 2009 that would cut global warming pollution by 90 per cent.

Several articles examined the green credentials of the performers, including Madonna, whose annual "carbon footprint" was estimated at around 100 times the average person's.

The New York Times' online edition yesterday featured a small picture of the event and in Britain, only the Independent on Sunday made anything more than a fleeting reference on its front page.

U.S. comedian Chris Rock expressed the kind of disbelief shared by many that Live Earth would make a lasting difference, even if he was only joking: "I pray that this event ends global warming the same way that Live Aid ended world hunger," he said in London.

My comments:
As scarcely mentioned again, litter was abound at concert areas
All over the globe
And with the exception of Japan
All the audiences left thousands of plastic cups, newspapers, wrappers
Piling up over the floor
And didn't think once to pick any of them up
As footage showed many just simply hopping over huge piles of recyclable waste
To head towards the exit -.-
My question is simply this, "Has the Live Earth concert brought ANY, if at all, awareness to all those people ignorant about environmental protection? Or simply, given them a simple excuse to view performances by artistes for free?"
Although I have to concede
The Japanese really did the entire globe proud
Members of the audience immediately
Without ANY prompting
Surged forward to aid the cleaners in any way they can
And even members of the public who might not have attended the event

Helped to pick up EVERY SINGLE PIECE of litter

That was on the ground, without a single care of who threw it
And purely out of kindness and awareness on caring for the environment
The West should learn from them
Seriously
The concert, I would admit
Was an interesting concept to educate society
But, not pragmatic, and no one ever considered that

Done with rambling (:
And no offence, if any, that I've caused
Hope I get better at clarinet playing
I'm soooo demoralized now
Practice practice practice
Oh Mandy, you MUST practice!
Sigh


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♥ Friday, July 6, 2007
Today's post shall be about short random musings hm

1. Never do a three-legged race with raffia string around your legs
The skin will immediately be scraped raw
And you'll regret ever going for amazing race
2. Brush away hair when attempting activities with flour
Or you'll realise you've aged almost 50 years
3. When looking through glass to look at the reflection of someone behind you
Make sure you're not seemingly, staring at someone
I was on the train today and there was this cute baby boy in a pram
Right in front of me
Then I was leaning against the glass
So I turned to look at the glass so I can see, by reflection, what the boy's doing
Without staring outright
Cos his mother looked extremely fierce
And I stared for 5 mins before I noticed someone shifting uncomfortably through the glass
And I realised that I was staring at a woman's crotch area
Her pants were dark so I didn't know! x_x
So embarrassing!
4. Oh and I hate when I'm sitting down and leaning against the glass
And someone's standing at the glass and leaning against it too
Cos my head always ends up somewhere near the person's butt
And it's so awkward
Cos even though it's like really normal and stuff
The only thing separating his BUTT and my FACE is the what
3cm thick glass?
EEK
5. Sharing an apple between two people is disgusting!
Haha, esp when Shaun and Chinmeng were eating
LOL
So gay sia! XD
And me and Vinnie were laughing SOOOO much
I was choking on apple at the beginning
And we banged into each other's noses once!
The juice was spilling all over the place somemore!
HAHAHA
6. I missed pizza hut
But I'm so glad we went today!
Especially with s13s and eating sweet and spicy drumlets!
WHEE
Reminds me of chalet day, when we all ordered 30 drumlets haha!
And me and Stephy hoarded them XD
Like dragons guarding our eggs
Erm chickens guarding our limbs?
Lol
7. BWAHAHA
Vinnie, I still find it very interesting!
You know what I mean!
*laughs and giggles and shrieks*
Okay, that's sooo not me XD

End!
Ooh, hafta go for band a watch Ryanna perform tmr
Busy busy busy! (:
Just like how my future days will be like
And I like it this way
I like to be stressed XD
Give me stress, and pressure, and treat me like an insignificant nobody!
Like usual...

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♥ Monday, July 2, 2007
Busy, busy and busy
So short one
And this time, really short XD

Listing stuff actually
Things I need to do:
- Studying for Bio SPA
- For Econs test
- Do econs holiday assignments (essay and case study) SHIT THIS LAAAA
- PW stuff
- (Ms lim's sure gonna dump hoards of GP on us)
- Lots of band prac (mixed feelings)
- Studying for PROMOS
- Twelfie HP movie outing!
- Twelfie Rapture outing! (is it considered outing? XD)
- Meeting other sec sch friends for outings (hopefully)
- OHH! Going back to get my stupid O lvl cert (I hope they haven't set fire to it)
- Reread my Harry Potter OoTP book (halfway thru!)

*faints*
Been so busy these few days...

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