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♥ Saturday, June 30, 2007
It's been a long time since I wrote a post with a nice decent length
And content of course
Well been busy with CTs
And also play and slacking and watching videos in between studying
I shall start from the most recent activity!
Lol
Band practice!
Today was fun
Sight-reading on top of technicals was much better
Than me sitting for 4 hours practicing two songs and still not getting it
At least I can play the damn slow parts of the sight-read songs!
XD Not the stupid demi-semiquavers though
Like o_o isn't that abit too fast?
And heard that band schedule is so packed
For July and August
Like the Asean games closing ceremony at Toa Payoh
Some learning day? For college students

Hm ok, and also outing with twelfies yesterday!
Watched transformers, which I almost fell asleep in because I was so tired
But I managed to stay awake
Cos it was hilarious!
Like all the touching or scary parts
Were somehow humorous in a sense
And our favourite part
"How did you learn our language?"
"Through the world wide web?" XD
"And how did you know I have my granpa's glasses?"
"eBay"
Rofl!
Hope I didn't spoil it! For those who wanna watch
Yay twelfies going for another movie!
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
It's going to be another exciting time!
After that we headed for Sakae from 3pm to close to 6pm
Had so much food and of course, MOCHI!
Ahhhh, peach mochi!
Then forced to go home for dinner
OHH! I forgot to mention
Haha, these two sales people or whatever, were giving out free stuff
Then it was in a box
StephanieS were curious so they both went to get one
And Steph Cheong brought it back to the group of guys
And they started laughing like crazy!
Haha!!! The woman was like
"Take more take more! Give your friends, they're like getting so excited over it XD"
And why?
Cos the blue box had the brand "Be Safe" on it
And the words 'for long-lasting pleasure'
Twelfies are polluted! XD All immediately xiang wai wai
And thought of the same thing!
Ahahahaha

Which reminds me to blog about chalet
It's gonna be a short little paragraph though
Went to downtown east and back about twice?
And out of the chalet about five times
First to get cds from Stephy's aunt
Think the guys all watched 300 XD
Second to send Steph Cheong off
And play arcade! Bishy Bashy and eat ice cream
Third to accompany Brandon to get stuff
(Sorry I woke ryanna up) ): heh
Fourth to see the sunrise
And fifth when it was time to leave the chalet!
See how much we walked? hahaha
Anyway we played bridge about 80% of the time spent there
Then the rest of it was to EAT pizza and DRUMLETS!!!
Watch a tiny bit of Night at the Museum
Laugh at Steph Cheong, Brandon, Alvin and Pauline play chocobo racing
And also Takedown? Or something that sounded along that line
About driving some car trying to err bash other cars? XD
Ooh I also rmb them playing some LOTR game
Quite alot of us went actually!
We ended up sleeping at most two hours, since 7+ until checkout
Which was about 9
*yawn*
Oh then Ryanna and I went to meet the rest of the OG
To sort of give Jingnan her bday presents
And have a "sending off party?"
Kind of a miserable failure though
It was also another excuse to take pictures for her nice photo album
But then, wanting's camera was let's just say... not very good
XD oh well
Hope Jingnan will appreciate the THOUGHT!
And the nice cap and Ryanna hon and I got for her!
Haha, pray that she copes well in CANADA! (: (: (:

That's all for now
I shall get back to watching my lovely Spirited Away
On crunchyroll!

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♥ Sunday, June 24, 2007
I blogged today
Lol
Cos I simply had nothing to do
But mama mia! lol
It's PRIVATE
Cos my parents found my diary and I hid it again but I decided not to write in it anymore
So I decided to blog next time
But everything's not gonna be posted
Bwahaha
I DOUBLE-CHECK before I click publish

I have a newfound motivation to study!
With the thought that you know, it's not a MUST for me to study
It's a choice!
So as long as I choose to study
And I'm happy knowing that I've accomplished something
Why not study once in awhile?
Like an hour a day, just to keep my brain working
Then it'll be over! Teehee

Randomness:
1) I can't wait for Harry Potter OOTP movie! And also the Deathly Hallows book! AHHH I need something to READ!
2) My brother's addicted to whatever, I think he's gonna get diabetes
3) I'm done studying BIO CHEM and MATHS!!! So I'm hoping for Cs, but preparing myself for Us, cos I don't think my studying is helpful? I think I can remember stuff, I don't KNOW if I can remember stuff XD
4) I must yue Chiko and Momo for ktv and FOOD! And visit ngee ann lol for err FOOD again
5) I need to stuff a sponge with soap down my STUPID brother's throat. He was watching some anime with alot of girls in skimpy clothes and I was like " OMG! Sicko!" and he was like "Bitch! Asshole!" cos I was threatening to tell my dad. To hell with him.
6) I use too many "I" in my posts, maybe I should talk about other people in my blog, but then it wouldn't be like MY blog anymore, haha okay I'm crapping... STOMACHACHE! XD ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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♥ Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Ooh I stink, lol, stupid weather
It's been so sticky all these few days
It's either super hot, or super cold, sunny or terribly rainy
Mm anyway since I have all the time in the world
Until the CT which is less than a week away
I shall do a teeny little update of my June holidays since the last update post!

Third week!
Monday
Had dinner with Stephy and Ryanna at Holiday Inn Park View Hotel!
Well we met up earlier though
Since morning with Ryanna and afternoon with Stephy
Ryanna and I watched Spider Lilies at my house!
Then we had lunch
Haha
Met Stephy at orchard!
Then we went walking around, window shopping kinda
Even walked through Isetan supermarket!
Contemplated going to watch movie at Lido haha
Then decided we didn't actually have that much time
Sat around at McCafe and took a few pics
Then headed for the hotel to sit outside it to await our FREE DINNER!
Hooray for vouchers mwahaha
I loved it when we piled our plates with so much food
You should've seen how much I ate
I wish I took more =P
Loads of prawns and cakes for dessert and that yummy white fungus soup too!
Ahh, we had so much fun! Well I hope they did :)
Spent more than TWO hours there! Loved the feeling when I handed over the vouchers
She thought us three looked like lost deers hahaha
Anyway headed to the toilet to cam whore for half an hour on erm the SOFA there
Haha, we're still wondering what it was doing there!
Some aunty came and thought we were there smelling the toilet! HAHA
Fun day! No studying at all! Lol

Then my boring three days, stayed home to sian and study
But didn't do any of the latter

Friday
Twelfie outing to Seoul garden!
After going for GP consultation that was
Cleared up loads of doubts
I'm glad it really helped alot, thanks Ms Lim! (:
But the sad thing was, it was raining cats and dogs
I could see them meowing and growling as they fell
And soaked my shoes totally too
Anyway, headed to orchard after going home to change!
Didn't know so many twelfies were going!
Haha
15 of us in fact
And we ate tons, I ate lots and lots! Of meat especially
I've never been such a carnivore my whole life
But it was a great meal indeed
Really enjoyed myself, with everyone again :)

Saturday
Mm, this was the depressing day
Lost my handphone...yep
Ryanna came over in the morning again! :)
Sorta chem consultation like
But my chem sucks! So haha, I didn't help much
Mommy cooked some yong tau foo thing for lunch!
Bland as usual, but anything she cooks is yummy :D
But then my dad made us eat lots of veggie
(Which reminds me, I just heard him SCOLDING my dog, for not eating enough veggie
I mean o_o BAMBI?! Anything he eats isn't his fault!)
Then red rain concert which I already talked about!

Sunday
Today was when I got my sim card replaced
Went to woodlands to get my free one
I had horrible sleep, swollen eyes and no appetite
Think that was the factor which probed my parents
To agree to replace my phone
Exactly as it was
But then it isn't white anymore ): My nokia N6233
Isn't music edition anymore...
But my mommy, being sweet as usual, offered to get even a doggy keychain for me!
So nice right?
She knew how much the phone meant to me
Not the item itself but the contents
Unlike my dad, who confiscated it the moment mommy brought it back
He's a person who doesn't seem concerned with anyone's feelings but his own
Mommy understands me in a way that he will never be able to
And I can never bring myself to love him as a father
I never trusted him since I was young
He's really paranoid
Anyway back to the point, I didn't study either XD
But at least I got my phone back
Then went for swimming with all the darn flying ants in the pool
Loads of them BIT me, argh, and I couldn't stop to swat them
Bleah, but anyway, father's day and I didn't to anything!
Except curse my dad again x_x
I'm such a bad girl, but I can't help it! Lol

Monday
Lunch at Swensens haha
Crayfish spaghetti was yummy (:
Haha, thanks for the treat!
Monday was to celebrate Yu Chuan's birthday
Met Ryanna dear, Eeyen, and yc's friends at TCC
Was supposed to study alot that day
But then in the end I couldn't really x_x
Sigh, I've gotta buck up!

Randomness:
1) I shouldn't mumble when I shout, especially during lifesaving practice
I went, "Don't worry, keep your head up! I'm going to *glurg* SAVOUR you!"
When I'm supposed to say save
2) ...next time hahah



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♥ Saturday, June 16, 2007
16062007
The day my phone got stolen
Can I say that today was almost the worst day of my life?
Lost all my contacts, all the pics of my darling little Bambi
Since he was a tiny puppy *cries*
All the silly photos I took, some from secondary school
Which I never bothered to transfer to my computer
Because firstly the thought of it being stolen
NEVER crossed my mind ):
Sigh
I'll never get it back
I HATE YOU THIEF ROBBER SCOUNDREL F***ING PIECE OF SHIT!
I don't mind you taking the phone itself
But couldn't you err ask nicely?
And let me take out the sim card and the adorable little puppy keychain first?
Then I'd surrender it to you!
ARGH
It was on a bloody crowded train too
I didn't even SEE who took it...

On a side note...
Everyone can ignore this portion of whining...
No one's ever there when I need them
Except Ryanna dear maybe
Everyone happens to be there when I don't have the mood
And leaves or ignores me when I feel the most depressed
It's not a very nice feeling you know
Maybe I'm just being selfish
People have their own lives to lead
They can't keep bothering about mine and trying to cheer me up
But just when I feel down and bothered
It hurts to see that no one cares or wants to listen
Or even simply saying "Cheer up"
Its just this sense of longing, emptiness
That I know I shouldn't feel
Perhaps I wasn't meant to be here on this earth
Maybe my parents should have aborted me
When they realised I was a girl
I mean they did mention that they wanted their first child to be a boy
And was EXTREMELY disappointed
It hurt again
That they didn't want me to begin with
Sigh, I'm unwanted, I shouldn't be alive
So it wouldn't matter if I disappear off the face of this earth right?
No one would care
You'd see this tiny funeral
With no guests because no one wants to come
To pay their last respects to someone they don't bother about anyway

Sigh, change of topic
Red rain concert was pretty okay
Not as bad as I thought it would be
But I got really tired standing for such long periods of time
And I was more preoccupied with the fact that
If I didn't go for the concert
NOTHING would've happened
So am I allowed to blame anyone else?
No. Because I'm a stupid dumbass who made my phone an easy prey.
I should just shut my mouth and stay at home forever
Then I'd never lose anything except my MIND
Haha. SOO funny. Maybe I should. Bye.

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♥ Saturday, June 9, 2007
Pics of 4th JUNE! + erm other dates
On the bridge near Siloso beach
Cool emo shot huh? Haha
Looks so calming, I love the water...
BUT, big big BUT, its like oily and greasy cos they're doing construction work
In the water, building some weird contraptions hm


Before taking the Luge!
In our pretty blue helmets
In case no one knows what the Luge is, its a ride
Vinnie has details on her blog XD
Cos they went quite some time before I finally did (:


Sentosa! On the skyride
Was pretty scary haha, cos there was nothing around us except lots of trees
And the totally UN-safety bar in front of us
Lucky I didn't drop my phone!

We were extremely amused over the fact that our shirts were the same colour as the seats! ^_^
Maroon chairs haha

Landing near my house! Where the light was brighter
(Had taken another orange pic XD)
Oh, this was on first June anyway haha

And I dunno when was this?
But haha here's a pic anyway!

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Here's a short little update about my life
Let's start from 3rd June
Bro's birthday
But it was a quiet and boring affair
As usual
Just stoned at home the whole day?
And mom bought a cake at night
We even had to still go for swimming lesson at night
Which was tiring
Didn't do much studying the whole of first week of June!
Only partial fractions, binomial, MI

Second week from Monday
4th June! Ryanna dear's birthday in American time!
Went Sentosa! I'll post loads of pics above later (:
Fun day, no studying at all! HAHA
Went to eat at Crystal Jade Dining IN
And it was really extraordinarily expensive!
Much much more that the ones at orchard would've charged for a usual meal
Ryanna insisted on paying ):
AHH I shouldn't have ordered so much heh
Thanks so much dear!
Then we headed to Sentosa to play the Luge!
It was so fun!
The skyride and the coming down part
Whee, exciting!
Didn't take any pics while coming down though ):
Sad
Hmm, then we parted cos I had to be home for dinner
And she had to have hers with her family! Celebration-like I think

Then 6th June!
Daddy got to have his intestinal operation at Mount Elizabeth
And stubborn as he is, wouldn't let me go with him cos they had to be there
To do paperwork at like 6.40am in the morning
Crazy huh?
But I wanted to go
Cos I'm such a nice filial little daughter LOL
Hey it's true okay? XD
Well in the end I went after the op
At around 10 plus, headed to Mount Elizabeth
Glad its close to orchard! Mommy wanted to get out of the hospital
Cos she was there for close to 6 hours?
So she dragged me out to shop with her before we go back to check on my dad
Bwahaha, shopping!
Went to lots of places
Bought stuff at Samuel and Kelvin, Esprit, Tangs, some roadside stalls
Wheee, what a fruitful trip ^_^
Then went back to the hospital
I had a stomachache, so I used the toilet there in the ward!
4 people were supposed to share it, so it wasn't all THAT clean
But still cool!
Haha, cos it was really big and the soap had a nice smell
Stayed for a while
Listened to the doctor talk about it but of course I couldn't see the actual wounds?
Cos it was cut near, you know, that area...intestinal operation mah
Hm went home early after that
Then had to get my own dinner cos my stupid bro didn't buy for me!
And mommy was still at the hospital with my dad
Well at least I didn't have dinner alone
Would've been quite scary, esp since it was quite dark
Overall it was another great day! Without studying again

Then s12 study outing at ... ... school -.-
Hahaha
We were supposed to meet at 10?
But me Stephy and Pau were all late, haha
Then the rest kinda all came even even later XD
Through the time we spent in the library
I think Pau did 10 times as much work as Stephy and I did
Lol
We needed to catch up with each other!
Haha, excuses excuses
Met Vinnie on the way out for FOOD
Lunch at macs where I just had to try the Fairytale Feast!
Chicken teppanyaki burger, YUM
But the fries sucked, they were much much much too salty
We all ended up flicking the salt all over our trays! Hahah
Aww should've cam whored there too
Went back to meet the rest
Alvin, Brandon, Billy, Kah Hwee, Raphael
Studied at the benches on the third level because
The guys didn't have college pants ><
But in the end? Me and Stephy didn't do much studying AGAIN!!!
While the rest were cramming as much work as they could haha
Then some uneventful stuff, but not worth mentioning cos its too insignificant
Must mention DINNER!
Haha, I was practically STARVING
We had zi cha at this place near macs!
Steph Cheong came halfway~ (:
Black pepper venison, claypot tofu, prawn egg, sambal kangkong
Ooooooooooo
But I still wasn't full after that
But then I didn't want more rice, so just left it as it is
(Stephy said: The lime juice was horrible! *nods in agreement*)
Another fulfilling day! This time with erm
Some punctuated bits of studying
Seemed like it was a playtime in which we spend the 5 minute breaks studying
Hahaha

Mm, then nothing much even today
Simply band prac, quite boring again
Time passed really fast the first three hours
Then crawled through the last one because we all felt so dead
Three of us
Xinyu, Sarah, Mandy
Flautist, Clarinetist, Saxophonist?
Practicing alongside each other
AND not even in harmony hahaha
It was a horrible cacophony to anyone walking past

PLANS FOR NEXT WEEK!
Monday - Buffet dinner with Stephy and Ryanna and a GHOST (still undecided)
My treat! Erm, without taking a cent out of my pocket
Teehee
Tuesday - Outing with Char and Noelle to who-knows-where
Friday - Seoul garden with TWELFIES! But we can't do anything besides that *moans* ):
Cos I'm not even allowed out in the first place
Saturday - Red rain concert! 3pm to 6pm

THE WEEK AFTER NEXT!
Wednesday - Bio consultation 2pm to 4pm
Thursday&Friday - TWELFIES AND AFFILIATES CHALET! plus sending Jingnan off at airport!

That's all folks! Can't pack anymore in
Have this nagging feeling of guilt cos I need to study
But then one look at this packed schedule
Intensifies it into pangs of regret
But then, what's gone is gone
I can't turn back time! Haha
So I'll just save a bit here and there to mug, wish me luck! (:

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♥ Saturday, June 2, 2007
photos!So obvious that this is like in a toilet lol. Early hours! Before ktv-ing, had a stomachache lol and shun4 bian4 took a pic hahaha
OG 27 neoprints! koped from Jingnan, hehe, thanks for uploading, but I look like shit in it XD But then, that's probably normal...




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This'll be short XD
Hm, OG 27 outing on June 1st!
Kinda fun (: Hope everyone enjoyed themselves!
Went ktv-ing in the morning
Only Ryanna and I were on time!
The rest were totally LATE
Hahaha
In the end headed to Orchard party world
And stayed for three hours
I only sang one song!
Cos I know my singing sucks, rawr XD
Kinda a waste of money then
But me being in the room itself means moi have to pay
Hehe
Well Ji Soo sang really well, all those Eng songs
Ryanna and Jingnan did too! ^_^
Well ktv ended in abit, after Pat and Kumar arrived
Then lunch at Taka at this Japanese restaurant thing?
Food was quite ex, but expected lah
It was really yummy though
Made me satisfied after starving for hours
Had no breakfast! Oh horrors of horrors lol
Then pool for the rest while me and Ryanna headed off to get my lens solution
Cos the shop that sells it, the ONLY shop that sells it
Is so far away I didn't want to make a direct trip there from home
Simply to buy two bottles x_x
Well we returned in about an hour to play pool with the others
Got thrashed by Kumar + Eeyen
But us two girls beat Yu Chuan and Jing Nan!
Not your fault JN, haha, you played well and he played like crap =P
Mm, then after that dinner NEOPRINTS!
Haha I was soooo ultra retarded in all of them *covers face*
Don't tease anymore! Lol
Then dinner (after most ppl left ): )
At cine food court? Cos we were all poor from the day of spending
Ahh, I still owe alot of ppl money
ASK ME FOR MONEY PEEPS! I DUNNO WHO TO RETURN! (:
Anyway, overall I had a fun time!
Thanks to Ryanna, Jing Nan, Ji Soo, Patricia, Kumar, Yu Chuan, Ee Yen
For turning up on 1st June 2007
To celebrate Ryanna dear's birthday earlier
And meet Jing Nan before she leaves again XD
And thanks for all the souvenirs people!

Randomness
1) Thanks for supporting me when I was hobbling home Ryanna!
2) My poor right foot is still numb, and left baby toe like "dead" IT'S BROWN XD
*makes a point not to wear those heels for long periods of time*
3) I haven't studied! Shucks... Pick up a book Mandy!!!
4) To save me some trouble, people with birthdays...
TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT! Hahahah
Then I can be sure to get you all something you won't dump
5) June holidays makes a person very carefree
6) Random fact about today's youth:
Not in love. Just in love with the idea of falling/feeling of being in love.
And in Stephy's words - Just get together for the sake of getting together...
We concur! Haha
7) Missing twelfies


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KeldA
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NicoL
QinN
Zi WeI

twelfies
Steph LeE
Steph CheonG
VinniE
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RaphaeL
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AlviN
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