Nice korean song called Star or 별
Heard it on the movie OST of 200 pound beauty (:
*hums*



바람결이 창을 흔들고

내 키만한 작은 나의 방 위로

아름답게 별빛들은 가득 채워 주네요
The wind shakes my window and the starlight beautifully fills my small room


많이 아파하지마 날 꼭 안은 채

다독여주며 잘자라 위로해주네요
It tells me not to hurt; it holds me tight, caressing and comforting me to sleep


걷지 못할 만큼

힘에 겨워 아파 와도
Even if I go through pain so difficult I can’t walk

눈물이 앞을 가려 와도
Even if my tears obscure my way

갖지 못한 내 사랑 앞에도 나 웃을래요
I want to laugh in front of my love, the love I can’t have.

잠시라도 곁에

행복 했던 기억들을

가슴에 간직할게요
I’ll take the happy but short memories by your side and keep them in my heart

두 눈에 수 놓아진 저 별들처럼
Just like the countless stars appearing in front of my eyes

영원히 ~
Forever~

꿈을 꾸듯 다가오네요
My dreams are coming close

유난히도 밝은 나의 별 하나
My one extraordinarily bright star

눈 부시게 반짝이며 어깨 위로 내려와
shines dazzlingly on my shoulders

자꾸 슬퍼하지마

손 꼭 잡은 채 날 만져주며

따스히 날 감싸주네요
It tells me not to be sad anymore, holding my hand, touching me and warmly wrapping around me

나 오늘만은 안 울어요
I’m not crying today

눈물이 가득 차와도-
Even if my tears pile up

저기 저 별들 처럼 나 웃을래요
I want to laugh like those stars over there

행복 했던 기억모두 가슴 속에 간직할게요
I will keep all the happy memories in my heart

두 눈에 수 놓아진 저 별들처럼
Like the countless stars appearing in front of my eyes

영원히~
forever~

My new and UPDATED holiday schedule, sigh, minus all the MUGGING ):


May
29th
- Math lecture + studying in library (8am to 4pm)
30th
- Band practice (9am to 1pm)
- 07S13 class gathering (??)
31st
- EMPTY

June
1st
- OG27 outing (10am to 8pm)
*rmb to go chinatown to get lens solution x_x
2nd
- Band practice (9am to 1pm)
- Afternoon EMPTY
3rd
- Bro's birthday (??)
4th
- Ryanna's birthday (24 hours XD)
- Chem lecture (8am to 1pm)
5th
- Pau's birthday (??)
6th
- Band practice (9am to 1pm)
- Afternoon EMPTY
7th TO 14th
- STAY HOME to watch over family *attempt to look like guardian angel* (:
- 14th GP consultation (9am to 11am)
15th
- Outing (??)
16th
- Band practice (9am to 1pm)
- Red rain concert (3pm to 6pm)
17th
- Morning to afternoon EMPTY
- Swimming (7pm to 10pm)
18th
- EMPTY
19th
- EMPTY
20th
- Band practice (9am to 1pm)
- Bio consultation (2pm to ??)
21st TO 22nd
- Twelfie chalet! (:
23rd
- Band practice (9am to 1pm)
- Sending Jingnan off at airport (??)
24th
- Last minute mugging (RAWR whole day la~)
- Swimming (tentative 7pm to 10pm)

THAT'S IT!
Exams after that...
Here for me to remember my busy days...

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Hmm, I seem to have nothing to blog about today
As usual XD
But then I always come and view this page
Then I sit and stare aimlessly, trying to rack my brains
Well...
I can't afford to anger my dad for this month at least
Or not the consequences will be drastic
Praying for him everyday
Just hope that everything turns out fine
I'm sorry I'm such a naughty kid
But nobody's perfect ain't it?
Sigh
I just hope that You'll keep him safe
Just let everything go through smoothly
I don't need a miracle
Simply normality

Hmm, this reminds me that I've got to study soon
My body is gearing up to celebrate and have fun in June
Not to buckle down and coop myself in the house
To mug until June 25th
Rahhhh
No way am I doing that!
(:
Although I've got my plans all ready
And I do still have to spare at least 2 hours a day to mug!
Haha XD
Ohhhh give me the motivation
Let me have the illusion that everyday is still a school day
Sad life huh
We Singaporean students lead
I crave to relax somewhere
Like in Australia maybe, with the sea and the sun
And school's just like a game
If only

Today's just a lousy day
A day I don't want to see repeated again
Annoying conversations
Teachers who don't see any sense
But I'd have to thank Mr Tan ALOT for helping me with my phone
How did the news travel so fast anyway?
All the twelfies and thirteens know lol
Most anyway
Sigh
My life is a tangle
A web of obstacles I don't want to handle
Just give up already

My blog is always so devoid of traffic XD
No one comes to read or tag anymore

Anyway, today was ...
Mandy's maiden attempt at learning the whole of Arsenal in one day
Result: Utterly disastrous flop
I didn't get past the first line
My tone, air, tongueing
Was all shitty, plus I can't switch from low A to B properly
*sob*
I'm such a failure at this
So disappointed with myself, and I bet all my bandmates feel the same
They were really helpful though
But I was just so pitiful at the clarinet
I think if anyone sat right under the bell
And heard me squeak my attempts out
They'd have gone completely DEAF
Or at least grimaced in excruciating pain
*wails*
I gave myself such high hopes
But like people always say
"You can't learn to fly before you can walk"
I need to master the basics before I ever EVER attempt another piece again
Looking longingly at the piece now
But I know that it's incredulous if I can play it nicely
Even if maybe I gave myself like a year to do so
I'm so hopeless, so retarded
The worst cataclysm the world has ever witnessed born
*sits in a corner and mopes*
Well, at least I have June to try x_x
Try and try and try...even if I know I'll never make it

Maths and Chem test results
One pass, one fail, and chem class test pass
I'm satisfied haha XD
Because stupid little Mandy can't have high expectations
If she sleeps through lectures, tutorials etc.
Studies maybe two nights before the test for an hour or two each day
And err...maybe fall asleep doing that too LOL
Wish I could find the lessons interesting enough to stay awake in
But I can never do that during most of everything
Sorry teachers, I can't help it
Besides I don't discriminate against subjects
Mandy sleeps in EVERY subject EQUALLY XD

Now June holidays to revise and brush up on all the knowledge
Grasp skills B and D for Bio SPA
Have some fun as well *twelfies CHALET!!!*
Go back for consultations for my atrocious GP
I can't sit back and relax
Knowing that after these couple of weeks of freedom
Its common test week
All the best SAJC! Show the teachers we won't fail them now!
Make them believe we can go against all odds and are fully prepared when the A levels arrive!
*grabs a textbook and starts mugging*
Haha, okay, not that serious XD

Anyway, my June is pretty free!
Except for Wednesdays and Saturdays for Band practice
Sundays for Ryanna to come over (:
28th May - Bio consultation
29th - 3 hour Math lecture
3rd for Bro's bday
4th for dear Ryanna's bday
14th for GP consultation
20th onwards for Bio consultation and TWELFIES CHALET!
Yeap, err, quite a relaxed schedule!
Book me
HAHAHA
If you wanna have outings or anything, and I'll add it to my schedule!
Terms and Conditions
*days subject to availability heehee!
*first come first serve!
*absolutely no boring activities allowed XD
Oh, that makes me sound like I'm for sale hahaha!
Heck!
I'm so happy right now!
Free as a bird!
...besides the still being disappointed about band practice part heh

P.S. if the hints weren't enough, Arsenal doesn't refer to a soccer team, it's a band piece!
SAJC's theme song haha

*yawn*
In school now
At the library and GP's going to start in about 45 mins
The most dreaded lesson in my life
Fell asleep totally in Bio lesson today
At least Ms Wong didn't say anything much
I was so dizzy and didn't want to sleep actually, just place my head down
At an angle closer to the table just so that it will stop spinning
Sigh
Now I've got to stay here and study for Mitosis and Meiosis Bio test

Distancing myself for my own good
Away from all the troubles and difficulties
I just want to live my life alone
It's easier that way

*jumps for joy*
I finished that SUDOKU!
Whee!
Haha, okay so here's my random post
That was the only thing I did today
I mean I didn't spend my whole day on it
But the rest of the time was spent eating, watching TV, sleeping, watching videos, taking dog for like 30mins walk
Poor Bambi got so exhausted I had to carry him back
So it was like a 15 min on top of that 1/2 hour
Wish I could post a pic of that Sudoku
First I must find out if I get a prize for finishing it XD

Heh
Now this will truly be a short little post
I realised I kind of underestimated my typing ability for the last one
So it came out pretty long in fact
I mean if you ignore the fact
That they were not very lengthy lil paragraphs (:

My day was a whirlwind
OOH! Just remembered I needa do my Sudoku
The ultimate whatever "king-sized Sudoku"?
I forgot what its called lol
Copied it from Pau
Who took a photo of it off the Math Mania notice board thingy
I'm not very good with names
Hee
Back to the point
Had elections today
Loyfatt councillor elects were pretty good!
Especially 07S13!
Haha, love you guys!
Do our class proud in the SC man
Then math lecture test
Which was complete crap
Even after I studied so hard yesterday
I kind of forgot everything I studied
Slapped down answers which I now think are completely nonsensical
Forget about that
Math = U already

Next part of my day was pretty unexpected, err, for me at least
I completely and utterly forgot
That we had mock Bio SPA?
So I was so surprised to see everyone holding the skill B and D notes
And studying them
Argh, so I screwed that one as well
I couldn't think up of any anomalies besides the unequal milk droplets
(Which I thought was egg white at first) XD
And the stopwatch; human error problem
Those were the only ones my stupid asinine brain can come up with
Then I fell asleep zzz... doing write-up
Because I had nothing to write at the 10th minute out of my hour long write-up time "limit"
Not really a limit considering I wasn't rushing
So brain drained

ME was great though
I still remember my Imagination card
Qn: If Mandy could choose how she died, what would she pick?
Options: A - Peacefully in sleep
B - Hit by a golf ball
C - Murdered by a jealous lover
D - TV fell into bubble bath (= electrocuted)
E - Overeating
Mandy's ans: B
Simply because it sounded like a much more interesting way to die XD
Although I would really prefer A haha
But so cliche
And I will never be able to overeat
Perpetually hungry you see, so the option is not applicable AT ALL! :P
Fun game though!
Then lucky Ms Wong decided to postpone our bio tutorial!
WHEEEEEEEEEEE
Or I'll be brain dead throughout my whole day
I completely didn't listen during econs lecture anyway
And Mr Tan is a liar!
Hahaha, promised to let us off early?
And in the end?
He let us off EXACTLY 4 minutes EARLIER!
Oh joy! (sarcasm) -.-
Then *cough* ponned sports club to watch boys soccer
SA lost to MJ on penalties ):
We put up a really good fight
Saints! Up and On! You did your best and although it may be disappointing
Never give up! We believe in you guys
And all of Team SAJC
All the best!

Bleah, now this isn't very short either
But at least per sentence there are fewer words! Lol XD
So it'd be considered shorter if it were in a prose form, rather that point form-like
But I'd rather it this way simply because it's easier to read!
Haha
You know, unlike some people's...
Make my eyes hurt and my head spin
At least it is slightly more aesthetically pleasing now =P
And chronic ailments will not manifest
Haha, okay not that bad XD
(MAJOR EDIT: IT"S THAT BAD -_-
*throws up all over computer*
I need to recover from chinese overdose)

AND this part *dramatic pause*
Is for Ryanna dear!
Haha, for always being there for me
Waiting for me after school even though I end really late
Acceding to most of my opinions and supporting me every time I was "emotionally distraught"
Heh
Like a dear sister! *hugs*
My bff! (:

ooh yay BLOGGER FINALLY WORKS
*immediately reduces font size*

But too bad, only short update for today
Cos I have a bio tutorial staring at me
Math test begging me to study for it
GP proj pulling my sleeve and asking me to look through it again
And my nerves whispering to my brain
That they feel like snapping

Been sniffling quite alot the whole of today
Think it's a combination of these few days' weather
Thunderstorm, then heatstroke, then freezing aircon, then out in the sun sweating
Repeatedly
And in the past the AVA room air-con was always spoilt?
So it was sweltering hot inside
So much so that we were perspiring on our papers
And now, that its repaired
They decide to turn in down to a bloody freezing temperature
Like I had the feeling it was at 16 deg celsius
We were shivering the whole of today
And I just felt like hibernating
Like a bear
To conserve energy and heat okay XD
Thus as usual?
Fell asleep...Zzz...
But this time, not my fault
Besides, at least now I copy every single thing even though I keep dozing off here and there
Pretty rarely do I miss anything out
Thanks to Brandon, Alvin, Stephy, Pauline for poking me awake
At regular intervals (:

Didn't go rock-climbing today
And somehow I think I've lost all sense and feeling this past days
No motivation to study
No pain when I clumsily hit myself everywhere
(Fell in the bathroom twice/thrice,
hit head while asleep on the bus on window panes several times,
banging arms and legs into edge of bedpost etc.)
I just don't feel anything anymore
Like I'm just living for the sake of it
When I got informed that we (Stephy n I)
Missed the theory session on friday and thus cannot go for practical today
Although I longed so much to try my hand at it
I just felt a mixture of slight confusion
Happy that I have time to study
Sad that I couldn't go for rock-climbing, a sport I really wanted to try
Happy that at least I can try some other time maybe
Sad that I have time, that I actually need to use to sit down and study
See...I'm so confused
And this is only a tiny miniscule fraction of my confusion

This time it's genuine confusion
Not that last time it was fake or anything
Last time was more accurately described as a dilemma
As in I was sure of my opinions and points
I just couldn't decide
But now
I don't know what I think
At all
I think I am suffering from dementia
x_x
I think and contradict myself, my own voice
What I say, is not what I think, what I say, is not what I think I say
Instead of being able to make a stand
And kind of debate with myself

Get it? Non? Haha, see
Now I'm confusing you...

Stephy, get better soon! (:

Anyway, I didn't go for rock climbing today
Solely because I didn't bring long/track pants
(Maybe not solely, partially because I don't wanna go without Stephy)
Don't you feel loved and missed? XD

Bio test was crap as usual
Think the most I can do is scrape another pass
So many application questions
And only half an hour to complete
Besides they were all phrased in a manner that was not easy to understand
Can't they simplify it a little
I mean Biology is not Literature
Don't kill us poor science-y people (:

Saw a pretty yellow butterfly on my way to the bus stop
Thanks Ryanna dear for waiting for me!
Between us we took 3 buses + 1 missed one to finally reach home
Lol
Anyway, back to the butterfly

It flew, flit and fluttered
Among the pretty flowers
Paused, stopped and landed
Above a particularly one as it towers

Sweet smelling and beautiful
But hidden beneath, an obnoxious intention
To tear apart the others
And court the butterfly's attention

And tentatively the delicate insect took a sip
Unknowing, unaware
While a single flower stood beside
Unheeded, in despair

It knew it wasn't any better than all the others
Or even simply unique
But watching this, just one of many encounters
It realised, it was only a foolish stick

Meant to be funny lol
The main point XD
The flower it was sipping nectar from
Seriously looked poisonous haha
And that was lame poetry
Because it didn't make much sense

Oh randomness haha
Think I'm getting a fever like you Stephy
Feverish from all this madness and stress
I need to STUDY X_X
Just bestow on me the MOTIVATION
So that I can do my best and not disappoint myself or my parents
Sometimes I wonder if I'm living a life of my own
Or still being manipulated by my parents
But being this nice "filial Chinese daughter"
Respect for elders comes first
They're flesh and blood relatives after all
So keeping them happy is number 1 priority ):
Sigh
Kill me

mandy is cross
mandy shall not say why she's cross here
mandy will only reveal that a certain person RUINED her mood
mandy is also sulking
mandy is sulking cos her head and back hurts
mandy explains that the shower head bounced on both yesterday
mandy is rather unhappy about feeling bruised
mandy also has an urge to RIP her PI apart
mandy does not wish to redo it
mandy feels that she's not reaping what she has sown
mandy however, will still try her ultimate best
mandy has a bleak future *huge neon lights* -will still FAIL PW-
mandy is starting to feel demoralized
mandy shall ignore all annoying people
mandy can then achieve a small amount of joy
mandy will then, not be disturbed and unfocused on schoolwork
mandy, just leave her alone and she'll be thankful

...because of this splitting headache
I shall swear not to bathe with the shower head in the holder anymore
Totally knocked all the juice out of my coconut brain
Now it's just a hollow husk
RARR
I wish I stayed at home like you Stephy
Glad you feel better though!

Since blogger screwed itself for me
My post is now ENLARGED
So no one can complain the font is tiny
But this size is so awful!
Like I'm not blind! -.-
This will make my blog posts look 5 times as long
CRAP

Anyway, in response to Pau's post
Eating is good! Having a good huge appetite is better!
Like me! lol
And what you ate that day wasn't alot XD
Wanna hear mine? Heh

Wednesday
Breakfast: Mee goreng
Brunch: Chocolate donut (from home) + Lychee ice
Lunch: Yong Tau Foo
Tea: Ban Mian (w pau obviously)
Dinner: Fried Rice
Supper: Hershey's chocolate + cereal and milk

Whee, that's my Wednesday!
And I normally eat more than that too heh
Don't feel bad, I don't exercise either =x

Ooh anyway to blog about my day
Been quite awhile since my first post
But was really busy the whole week
What with Chem SPA, GP current affairs quiz
Which I kinda screwed, didn't even manage to complete last question
While I tikam-ed through the MCQ
Sigh
But finally got a day of rest today! (:
Went to watch Spiderman 3 with twelfies
Was late, oops, sorry
But because I had diarrhoea the whole night
My mom was so shocked to see me snoozing on the toilet at 4am XD
But I can't help it!
Pained and sleepy, but can't go back to bed for fear of (you know)
*sulk*
Must have eaten too much crap yesterday
As usual lol
Anyway the movie was great!
Everyone should go watch it
Even if like me, you haven't watched 1 & 2
Because the story was easy to catch and follow (:
Managed to sneak in a double fillet-o-fish and two cheesy hotdogs
And had my brunch in the cinema
Pau left after that
And we went Swensen's for lunch
Yum, although I didn't have much of an appetite after that
So had a root beer float! *gleeful*
Ah, the ice cream and root beer was soooo ultraaaa sinful
I hope I don't get fat x_x
At the rate I'm going
Sooner or later I think I'll see the results of my gluttony
Raphael left after that, for his "matchmaking session"
Lol, I wonder how it came to that
Then the rest of us went to accompany Stephy to Yamaha
Where I came to the realisation of a unbelievable fact
Clarinets cost almost or maybe more than a PIANO!
Like they cost around 10thousand bucks!
Goodness...
No wonder the band people keep telling us to watch what we're doing with them
Like erm not holding them and running about the place
Woops

Hm, random thoughts
Sorted out stuff
Decided that yeah, I need time
And thanks for understanding that (:
So we'll continue being great friends
Remember to keep trying to be a better person!
XD I see a little improvement
Hope I'm not too demanding
Whee~

<3 signing off, the silly, clumsy, lazy, sleepy little dandy mouse
p.s. I don't fall into SOUP!

Updates on my beautiful weekend!
Saturday was like a total slack day
I woke up at 10 went back to sleep at 11
And finally dragged myself up at 1...
Lol
Then alot of internet surfing
Time magazine reading
Then left the house at 4
To meet Stephy, Yong Kuan, Raphael, Vinnie, Billy, Chong Ping, Kah Hwee, Wai Sum, Steph Cheong and Yu Chuan
For BAND CONCERT!
Yay, my seniors and the rest of band did a great job!
Listing people I know by name
- Joel
- Pamela
- Brandon
- Daniel
The rest of the clarinetists *my section*
And of course just the whole SAJC CONCERT BAND! (:
Haha, Pamela and Kenneth were so amusing
They totally brought the atmostphere into
Bach to the Beat!
I didn't really feel sleepy at all throughout the almost 2 hour long concert!
Even though I kind of expected myself to XD
Reached home close to 11 (almost tripping over myself half the time)
Gah, at least my heels didn't hurt
Which is great!
But I lost feeling in three of my right toes
For two days LOL
The price to pay for an added advantage
That is HEIGHT
Teehee

And I love my parents right now
My daddy trusts whatever decision I make at the moment
Emotional-wise
Because he must've realised I've become more mature
And my mom gives great advice
Which I will definitely follow
Step number one is being carried out
Sorry for being so methodical
And even more heartfelt apologies if I will hurt anyone...
Because I've finally accepted what I have to face in future
And end something before it starts
For real ):
Not until I'm ready...

OH YEAH
IMPORTANT EDIT: how could I forget this
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEL! (:
whee~

mandy
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