Last post was like a week ago?
Because I had nothing to blog about besides my boring school life
But now, I have to spill my heart out about the greatest event ever
Fahrenheit's autograph session at IMM!
They were so tall and big and friendly and cute and shuai in person!
Now I sound like some crazy fan lol
Chiko and I queued since like 9 plus in the morning, then was queueing at the side
Wish I listened and queued more towards the centre, then can see them straight on and better
Sat there the whole day, ate macs
Attempted to study for chem test but failed
At least I finished my GP article, or not I'll be screwed
Luckily the teacher thought my article was kinda interesting
But I mean China missile tests on satellites didn't seem very controversial at first XD
Anyway back to the topic
FAHRENHEIT was amazing!
Actually I don't know about amazing, couldn't hear them sing well enough
Because, left, right and centre were screaming girls -.-
I took lots of pics though, but they were super blur
They autographed the background behind them though!
Arron wrote "Love Singapore" *goes into a dreamy stare*
Was squished with thousands of screaming girls, and when I say thousands, I MEAN thousands
Although the chinese newspaper said about 2000, I figure there was about 5000 or more
Perhaps they didn't count the snaking queue outside near the taxi stand
Really pity those fans though
Bore nature's wrath, the sun and rain, and might not have heard/seen/gotten autographs from them
Glad I was there early (: Was probably one of the last 100 to get my albums signed
We could shake hands! Hehe, so happy, their handshakes were firm and warm
I was probably so delighted that I just kept whispering "謝謝!" and going all gaga
Wu Zun really can't read Chinese I think lol
I kept waving his letter in front of his face and he didn't take it until I shoved it into his hand
Probably thought it was for someone else XD
Calvin didn't look that bad in person, he actually was pretty good-looking
Jiro was so cheerful, energetic, warm and lively in person
Arron was beaming widely and was so cute! Especially with his extra movements in the performance
His voice while harmonising with the others was so strong and sweet too ^_^
Wu Zun/Chun is just so handsome in person, has really sharp features, Chinese wasn't that bad either
Sigh, 愛到飛輪海到此結束...
Have to return back to studies and my boring life
P.S. Really SCREWED my chem test today ;_; that's the sacrifice I had to make for dear Fahrenheit
I REALLY REALLY hope it's worth it

This post, is a reflection of the amount of control I have had over my life the past 16 plus years.

Okay starting from small

Since I was able to talk, walk and whatever, make my own decisions, I've never been given the chance to
My whole life is planned out for me
Where I should go, who I should meet, why I should do this, how I should do it, what I should attempt
EVERYTHING
Basics are, since young, when I go out with friends, the group MUST not include boys
Which explains my distaste for them
When I'm even allowed to go out, there are specific places I can't go
Bowling, Karaoke, People's houses, anything with actual entertainment
My life is mapped out for me
Since I was four
Shuttling between, electone classes, art classes, swimming lessons, dance lessons
A variety of school CCAs, dance, wushu, brownies, buddy reading
I don't get to choose what I want
Secondary school choosing, I practically had to go down on my knees and beg my parents to send me to St. Nicholas Girls'
Had the best time of my life there, but this was a decision I made myself
When I actually get to choose what I want, the process is tough, the begging is ongoing, and the backlash is intolerable
Then I switched my option form MYSELF, so that I would get to be in St Andrews
Nobody close to me is going there, but its a choice I made and I don't regret
I suffer at their hands, their manipulations in my fragile life
I don't like what I'm forced to do, to go through, without my own consent
They are overprotective paranoid parents
I mean I'm almost 17, old enough to be able to weigh consequences myself
And I'm confident that I can do it right
I'll undertake all the responsibilities of my choice
SO WHY DON'T YOU LET ME TRY, AT LEAST TRY
Now my life is going to continue on that planned journey
To Anderson JC, to the University of their choice
To enter into a faculty I don't wish to join
To take up a career I'll probably loathe
Soon I will resign myself to my fate
And probably get used to the monotony of this planned life
But now that I'm still in the stage of teenage rebellion
And the desperate want to be able to change this revolving cycle of plans and failures
I WANT TO MAKE MY OWN DECISIONS
Follow my dreams
Let no one stop me in this pursuit
Let alone be entrapped in this psychological barrier, of defying my parents and their will
This is my only wish
To be able to CHOOSE

And I'm sick of not being able to meet their expectations
Can't they be content with who I am?
I can't be exceptionally smart, talented or gifted, besides being the way I am
I'm not perfect
Please accept that, and let me move on
Not force me to try to complete every task you've set out for me until you're satisfied
I'm sick of failures
That's what's probing me not to try anymore, because I'm just tired
I don't want to go on anymore
The more you pressure me, the harder life is to live
Have you heard of depression?

Making it short and sweet today
Decided not to try phoning the radio station anymore, it's such a waste of time doing such a useless thing
And recap of today
Stayed till 2.30 for band practice
Then got told that we shouldn't be there
So headed for dance at 2.45
Had to learn three eigths of their SYF dance and some hiphop sequence thing
Totally sucked at the second, was alright at the first
But obviously didn't get picked
Surprisingly I felt a little hurt about not being chosen
But relieved XD Because I love band
Now comes the summary of my problems...

I love band, but I can't play any instrument
I love to dance, but I can't dance
I love to sing, but I'm tone deaf
I love bio, but I think it's so boring
I love chem, but the lecturers confuse us in the worst way
I don't mind maths, but I'm horribly confused during lectures
I don't like econs, but I'm most awake during the lecture
I don't like chinese, but I'm making an attempt to learn 繁體字 and sing chinese songs
I love to sleep, but I've only been sleeping 4-6 hours every night
I love to hang out with lots of friends, but I can't stand crowds
I love sports, but I hate to exercise
Last but not least
My parents treat me really well, but I hate them

...What a contradictory life I lead

At least I have band practice on saturday to look forward to
Clarinet, oh here I come!
And katie peachie momo wang's birthday too
Going for movie, lunch and kbox
It's gonna be fun, Fun, FUN
I hope XD
Heehee, hopians hope!
And I was so lame with chiko today
QUOTE: Guess a word...
Bet she'll ask me not to remind her about my lameness lol
Teehee

OMG I so want to like eff 93.3 alr -_-
Sorry for being so crude and all that but I'm pissed, thoroughly pissed
The only way to win tickets to like Fahrenheit's fan meeting at k-union, is through that, only 15 pairs will be given out the whole of this week
Or not like pay $188 for a package? Like NO WAY
And tried yesterday, listened to it since like 9pm?
AND the DJ gave out the tickets at like 10.40!
I was so fed up listening to chinese music
And pissed because I didn't dare to call after getting shell-shocked by the fact that I have to SING on radio
And that's only IF my call gets through
Then today I was so prepared to call and all that
Learnt from yesterday's lesson, so only started listening at like 10.20pm?
Then after that horribly long song, heard the DJ say :" Tickets were already given out an hour ago"
That moment, I totally felt like throwing my phone out of the window
AND strangling her
Sorry, for being so against her but yeah, I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE
I got all the lyrics in front of me too!
So that I wouldn't go wrong
So prepared to embarrass myself in front of thousands live?
But, I can't even get the chance!
I don't care, I'm trying again tomorrow
To show that I perservere, in the face of ANNOYANCE
Although that's obviously what the radio station wants
But I'm not doing it for them, I'm doing it for 飛輪海
And they better show that they deserve it
Or I'll be even more
PISSED

Title inspired by chiko XD
School was okay today, skipped econs because it was H2 but somehow alot of people still attended it
Recalling CCA day, signed up for 3 CCAs (band, dance, sports club)
So I have err, band + dance practices tomorrow
Sort of, going to try the clarinet, which they decided was best for me, then going for dance at 2.45
Tiring day, esp since I have muscle ache
Stupid 2.4km, we had to run for 15 minutes straight and then walk one round to cool down
That's ALOT of work for pe
Then GP lecture about sociology and culture, history, blah
BORIIING
Followed by chem lecture on molarity and concentration
CONFUSING
Luckily we had an "outing" after that
Love you all OG27! We're always together as a group (:
So Yu Chuan, Rui Zhe, Ee Yen, Jing Nan, Ryanna, Wai Sum and I
Trooped down to Kbox at Paradiz Centre
and had
FUN!
Haha, we sang our lungs out, although initially awkward
Wai Sum and Yu Chuan sang really great
No comment about Rui Zhe
And the rest of us just went along with the flow
Although I'm quite sure I might've killed their eardrums with err my high notes
Squeaky squealing too
Sang so many songs, and then Kbox became so high tech all of a sudden
Turned off the karaoke thing at 7 on the dot
Such killjoys -_-
And we still sat inside and sang for a tiny while lol 舍不得走 XD
At least they don't have sprite, coke and all those crap anymore
With tap water ice, it was just plain gross
But now, we had fizzy drinks with flavours, like green apple and strawberry
Mix of sweet and bitter, just great (:
Had to go home for dinner though
So didn't join the others, finally saw Dhoby Xpress
Not as interesting as I thought'd it'd be
Well, see you tomorrow all my lovely newfound friends! ^_^
Cheers~

Nothing eventful again.
Tried looking for more songs and lyrics and got so bored doing so.
Can't bear to think of running 1.6 to 2.4km tomorrow, especially since I'm so sure my muscles have atrophied and I'll pass out on the track or something -.-
Well at least the western food and fruit juice in school is nice (with the exception of papaya milk)
But tomorrow's schedule is so terribly packed I'll have to time to rest
Looking forward to ktv at paradiz centre tomorrow (:
I don't care, I'll sit and watch
With a really good reason that I can kill people with my singing XD
But at least OG27 will all have so much fun!
Chemistry homework is staring at me, and I'm resolutely staring back at it
So not going to touch mole concept
It's soooo boring, and lectures made it even MORE confusing, grr
I mean like, molecule, atom, mole, all sound the same to me right now
And math was horrible
Teacher seemed to be held in the illusion that we all knew what the heck was partial fractions
After going really fast through the whole thing, then decided to ASK
And obviously none of us knew what she said the whole time
Argh, is there econs test tmr or what?
Me=blur

and my current favourite song...

触电
风走在我们前面
甩裙摆画着圆圈
花美得兴高采烈
那香味有点阴险

你在我旁边的旁边
但影子却肩碰肩
偷看一眼
你的唇边
是不是也有笑意明显

明明是昨天的事情
怎么今天我还在经历
一丁点回忆都能惊天又动地
想问个愚蠢问题
我们再这样下去
你猜会走到哪里

但请你不要太快揭开还沉默的情话
先让我多着急一下再终于等到解答
太容易的爱故事就不耐人回味啦
像这样触电
就够我快乐熔化

我们就耐心培养萌芽不要急着开花
反正有长长的日记等我们去填满它
在被全世界发现以前先愉快装傻
就这样触电
一直甜蜜触电
直到爆炸

像一年四个季节
都被你变成夏天
我才会在你面前
总是被晒红了脸

像一百万个秋千
在我心里面叛变
被你指尖
碰到指尖
我瞬间就被荡到天边

Called pizza hut like 10 times today, none of those calls got through -.-
So we gave up
Went to woodlands and ate at soup restaurant, normal fare
As usual, walked around after that and saw POPULAR! lol
Drawn immediately to cd-rama again because there was a huge poster of Kim Jeong Hoon like smack in this glass case, with the 2007 calendar pasted around *frowns* And obviously I can't afford it
Well at least I have the fahrenheit album, although I might not even make it for the autograph session *never thought about that* sort of bought it on impulse because me and chiko looked everywhere for it, and finally found one at Hougang Mall
Oh yeah, at least Kate liked the turtle we got for her, or more precisely, the pair of turtles lol, we had extra *nods*

And for randomness, ten things i hate about school
1. Bus ride takes too long. Hey I can fall asleep on a 1/2 hour ride x_x
2. Lectures. One word, BORING
3. Food. Expensive yet gross
4. People. Everyone seems so unfriendly it gets pretty scary o_O except OG 27 of course (:
5. Walk. Getting from the bus stop into the school leads me past the diocese of singapore, then some kindergarden, then junior school, then secondary school, then this loooooong bridge across the river then FINALLY sajc -.-
6. Homework. Not exactly homework, but how can we attempt something we've never learned?!
7. sngs girls in sajc. *whispers* not to be mean, but they just aren't nice *pouts* they keep staring and pointing at me
8. Assembly. The floor is wet, and yet...
9. Toilets. Wet too, just really gross and wet
10. CCAs. Limited choices, but I do really hope I get into band =P

...end of randomness

Labels: food, sajc

Contrary to what it seems, I don't think life is as eventful as it is made out to be. No matter how interesting you try to make it, or how busy you try to be, you can never complete everything you hope to achieve (even with the ability to do so). And the list of my top ten most ironical observations...

10. Everyone wants to help save the world, they know how to do so, but they don't make any effort to. Is that a fault? I don't think so, it's natural human instinct, avoid conflict, avoid trouble, avoid doing anything which doesn't benefit oneself. Then people with higher ranking complain about their peoples' unwillingness to cooperate and help, are they themselves actually making any effort to do anything besides trying to blame their charges?

9. Feminism. There's absolutely no point in this. Women want to be strong, tough, independent and reliable. But there are two genders in the world for a reason, and an alpha has to be chosen, naturally the male is picked because of better physical strength. And the woman? Just a counterpart? No, but as a complement to the men. So why be strong, when you know you were born to be weaker (but just slightly), after awhile, there's just no reason to try anymore.

...to be continued (time goes by too fast)

Labels: irony, randomness

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NaT
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twelfies
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